what a busy time....

Okay, I know that I haven't posted anything for awhile (as someone was very kind to point out) so here is what I have been up to.....

Well, I've been travelling to PA doing my little candle parties on the weekends, and dealing with everything that goes with it. I had this one order that wasn't right and had to phone a couple of times a day for just about a week to fix it. Needless to say I still haven't gotten ahold of this lady to get things straightened out, but whatever. There's only so much I can do before I go insane.

This past weekend we had our family splurge get together. It was a lot of fun. We were at my aunts house playing that race horsing game, (which I had drained all of the change out of my piggy bank for....but ended up leaving it at my parents house) we played for over 3 hours and I ended up losing all of the change my mom had given me. Sorry Mom. After that we went to this chinese restaurant for supper. Let's just say I'll never go back. It was the worst chinese I have ever had!!! It was in a small town so no worries about anyone going there!! They drowned everything with onions and skimped out on the actual food (like the chow mein noodles!!). Very disappointing. Oh well. And of course, I won splurge that night. I really wanted to win because I had a plan for the money, but at the same time I wasn't ready to plan an event. But I think I'm good now. If people don't like my idea that's just too darn bad.

My sister and my brother had also come down for a visit during this past weekend. They came at different times, my brother just left yesterday. Right now I'm also getting ready for the girls' dance recital. Once again I am the costume mom, but for Chloe's group only. So I've been busy trying to get things organized by getting girls sizes, finding the right items and just going crazy trying to get them ordered in time for the recital. It's only a month away and the place we ordered from is in Ontario. Last year half of the outfits came just a couple of days before the recital! I still had things to sew on them and I only had a day and a half to do it in, just to make sure they were all done for photos the day before the recital! Stressful tie that was!

And the other thing that I have been up to is the biggest one of all. With my winnings from splurge I decided that I would join the gym. I know that I've done this before, but I feel very confident this time. I feel very comfortable with where I'm going and it's nice to be able to go somewhere that actually supports you. But the thing is that no one knows about this, not even my hubby. I want to start out with just my knowing and see if anyone notices. But I'm fine if they don't. I just don't want the drama of why I'm not going the bro-in-laws gym to support him. It's not about him though, it's about what I need. This is a place that I feel I will actually succeed in. So too bad for everyone else, it's finally about me.

And so after all of that, that is where I am at this point. I know that even when I'm busy, I still need to sit my butt down and get these things out. It feels good just to be able to sit down and talk about whats going on with me. Going to do it more often, even if my life does revolve around my kids. If I talk about that stuff too much, you'll just have to live with it. But my goal is to start doing more things for myself. So until next time.....wishing both me and you luck in the things in our lives.....

What Does Valentine's Day Do For You?

What a LOVEly day this is.....the day for love.....Valentine's Day. Not exactly the most romantic day of the year in my books, but hey, if it is for you that's great. To me this day isn't much except for the few extra kisses I get from my hubby.

There's no point going out for supper because you'll have to wait for an hour to get a table. And to find a babysitter would be even harder! I can see it being great if it ran on the weekend, but Cam works so that takes up most of the day. I don't think we've ever celebrated on the actual day of the 14th. For me it's hard to imagine how some people dote on this day forever before it's even here. It's great when you're younger but once you're out of school the day kinda looses it's charm.

Please, correct me if I'm wrong (or if you actually have a romantic partner) but this day just doesn't do it for me. Maybe I'll get a "special treat" later on in the night, but until then it's like any ordinary day. But maybe since having kids it's made me more blah to these kinds of things. I don't know, maybe it is just me. But I'd rather have that romance throughout the year and not feel like he's doing it just because it's "that day of the year". Yeah, romance throughout the year would be good. Maybe there should be a "be romantic to your partner" week or something. Maybe then we'd have time to prepare and have a chance to go out when everyone in the city isn't going crazy in those few evening hours. Yeah, way to go candy companies, you got us good!!

Friday night

So turns out the job isn't for me. It's a position that needs some accounting experience, which I have absolutely no knowledge of....so there goes that idea. But you know I'm actually fine with that. So at least I can say that I had the motivation but it just wasn't meant to be.

So it's Friday night and the hubby is passed out on the couch beside me. This is one reason that I'm glad that I don't work. By the time the weekend comes he is so worn out that this is how our nights usually end. Him crashed on the couch (getting enough sleep to go crazy working on the house tomorrow), and me being bored out of my mind and turning to the computer for something to do. The $40/month that it costs is well worth the entertainment that you can find (thank you POGO!!).

I never once imagined that this is how married life would be. I understand that we have kids and can't go out all of the time, but there is only so much you can do in your house every weekend. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for everything and everyone in my life, but I never imagined my life like this at 24. More money= more nights out? Doubtful. Then you would have to find a babysitter and he would need to take a night off of reno's.....it's like pulling teeth. I don't know... maybe one of these days I can drag him away, ditch the kids and have a date night. Yeah, that would be nice. Life as an adult can get to you sometimes, especially when you're mainly surrounded by little ones.

Life is good, but everyone needs a break. Maybe this blog thing will be my sanity and my connection to other "adults" in this world......hello Friday night.

Big Decision...

Right now I find myself in a situation that I haven't been in for years..... applying for a job. It's not that I HAVE to get one, but to give us some extra money, it would be nice.

So in our store they are looking for daytime help. I don't know if I want to go to work and be away from the girls, but at the same time it will help me get out and be something that I'm doing for me. Time away would be good, but at the same time I don't think I'm ready to commit to that. But it's not hairdressing so it wouldn't be weekends like before. And in some ways it may help me to be able to keep my sanity.

But what if I don't get this job? Then do I just stay happy with the way things are, or do I go out and look for something else? I don't know. All I have to do is walk a couple of doors down and find out what they're looking for. But even thinking about that makes me nervous. I hate being on the spotlight trying to impress someone. But if that's what I have to do, then I guess it's worth it.

Even as I'm writing this I have 2 kids climbing all over me and trying to type something themselves.......yes maybe it is time for me to be out of the house for a bit. It would be good for all of us. But if I do get this job, it will be hard for me not to be here for when Madison comes home from school, taking them to school, dance and everything else that I'll be missing out on. I will even miss being home and making supper for when Cam gets home from work. I hope overtime starts soon for them! Then I wouldn't have to worry.

Oh well, time to suck it up and see what I can do. Wish me luck!!

20 People.....20 Sentences

The idea: Write a sentence about 20 people; one sentence per person, but don't mention who...(sometimes i wrote more than one sentence...)

* You are my best friend and I know that I can turn to you with anything

* I hope you know that I am here for you no matter what.

* You need to take time to relax because when you do you can be a lot of fun

* I'm glad that we're talking again, I missed having you around!!

* I'm happy for you and the changes in your life. You seem so happy now.

* I love you more than words can say, but we still have our moments....

* It's nice to have someone who understands me in ways others don't and someone that can keep a secret.

* You have had so many changes in your life and I just wanted to say that I'm proud of you!

* I have enjoyed getting to know you better and now know that you aren't all that bad.

* You are such a beautiful person and I love your personality! Don't ever change!

* We have been through so many things together, but I can't help with the decision you need to make.

* I hope it all comes back and bites you hard in the ass because you deserve it!!!

* I know we haven't always got along (and still don't all of the time) but I truely enjoy the time that we share together.

* It's great to have someone else that shares in our interests. It helps not being the only female! You're a blast to be around!

* You are always on my mind and I hope that you're taking care of yourself. I also wish we could talk more, but it's hard.

* If ony you knew what you were missing.......

* I know we were close when we were younger, then drifted away from talking for awhile, but I'm glad we can talk again.

* You live so far away, but are settling in your ways. I'm proud of your success.

* I think we would have a lot more in common if we would've started out on the right foot.

* Wherever you are, I hope that life is treating you good, and I hope to be able to talk with you again someday....

The First Entry

Hello everyone and welcome to my blog. I must admit that I am completely new to blogging, so forgive me if it sucks, but I think I'll be fine. I have read other peoples blogs and love the idea that people can just sit down at their computer and be able to write down whatever they are feeling and not worry if people are really listening. The other great thing is when people actually comment about what you wrote and let you know that you're not the ony person in this world feeling that way or can see what's going on in your life.

So this is me, attempting to get things out of my head and on the web for the whole world to read. Kinda scary when you think about it, but also neat when you think about it. I'm not sure if I'll have interesting things to say or not, but whatever. If you don't like it, don't read it, right?

But until another day this will have to do! Hopefully next time will be a little more interesting.