Friday, June 15, 2007

Jealousy

So lately I have been thinking alot about jealousy. I never realized that there are so many different ways to be jealous!! Well I did but I didn't. I must admit that I have been feeling the little tings of jealousy rising within me over some silly little things.

To be jealous over seeing people I know going places. I am so jealous because I haven't really been anywhere. I go out to the west coast every other year, but I have never really gone far. I would love to be able to go on a big trip somewhere, so when I see so many beautiful pictures of other peoples trips, I start seeing a little green. But I feel that this is a good jealousy. It's not the kind where you want "revenge" on someone. I am extremely happy for those who travel, I just wish it was me.

I am jealous of some peoples jobs. But then I sit down and think about it and I'm happy with my career choice, and I'm happy to be staying at home with my girls. I'm sure that these people that I see and think they have a good career might be thinking the same about other people. So what am I jealous about? Who's to say that if I did that job I would be happy? And why make myself miserable when there is no need.

Jealous of ex's. Ok. this is a huge one for me to deal with. I am a very jealous person when it comes to this topic of jealousy. Why does it bother me so much? My husband has been talking with a girl from his past. To know that they're talking and to know their history just bothers me. I have no idea what it is exactly. I'm not scared of anything happening, but I think it's just knowing stuff like that and realizing that I'm not the only one who has been a part of his life. Sounds stupid doesn't it? I'm trying to get past this, but it is taking a little bit of work.

So that's my little blurb for today. Let me know of some jealousies that you may have that you find rediculous!!

Monday, June 4, 2007

Interesting Facts....

So I was tagged in a meme by I am the diva. so here it goes....

The rules are:
Each player creates a list of eight random personal facts/habits.
At the end of your post, list eight people who you want to tag to also do this meme.
People who are tagged will post these rules and write their own list of eight personal facts/habits

Here's the facts:

~I am a very family oriented type of person. Family means the world to me, whether it's imediate family or cousins.

~Since being at home I find that I am starting to watch Oprah. This is one thing I swore I would never do, but some things she does are interesting to watch and other days I can't find the remote to change the channel so I end up watching it anyways.

~I tend to overthink just about everything. Because of this I usually have trouble sleeping and end up getting stressed out over silly things. It usually takes me an hour to fall asleep at night.

~I love to go fishing!! I just love the thrill of the fight and being able to be out on a boat, enjoying a beautiful day and spending time with the people around me. But I only do catch and release.

~I don't care for ritzy food. Seafood, fish, steak (I do like steak, but rarely get it cooked the way I like it, medium well...and pink is disgusting to me, so I just don't order it), etc... I would much rather have a burger, pasta anything else. I like simple food. Just can't aquire the taste for that other stuff.

~I like to keep things that have memories. I still have pretty much all the notes friends gave to me in grade 7,8 & 9.

~I love to take pictures. I'm trying to widen my horizon by taking pictures of different things. I am really enjoying taking scenery pictures and am trying some animal pictures but find that my zoom isn't as good as I thought it was.

~I love to sing. Singing just makes me feel good. whether it's an upbeat song or a slower one, I just love to sing. No matter how I'm feeling there's a song to suite my mood. I did take voice lessons for a year, but then bacame busy with other things to continue.


Now I'm supposed to tag people to do this as well....so here's a couple.

Mary's View
Midnight Mary
On My Two Feet
KDawn
Chris

and whomever else is reading that I don't know about!!

enjoy!

Saturday, June 2, 2007

My Pride....

Hello everyone!! I know that it has been a very long time since my last post. But with it being summertime, I have become very busy. With ball going on for Madison, and also for Cam & I, amongst many other things, I find myself being very busy lately. So I will try to make more time for my blogging, but somedays I just feel like I have nothing to write about. Being a homemaker doesn't make my life the most interesting. Most days just consists of me doing chores around the house, being with the kids, running to the store for something for supper, or whatever else that day throws at me. But all in all, it's a daily routine for me and I would feel bored if I wrote about the same things day after day. So if I don't post for a little while, then that should help give you a reason as to why.

But since I am writing, you must've figured out that I have found something to write about. Today we had a ball game and I ended up leaving with a lot of pride in my team....and in myself.

Every time we play, we play two games just to help the season move along a little faster. So the first game went pretty well, the team was doing good and getting some hits. We did manage to get a homerun though!! Only wish he wasn't the first one up to bat!! We ended up winning that game 8-2.

BUT, the second game is the one that I really want to talk about. This game was awesome!! A huge boost of confidence to our whole team. First inning we managed to get in 6 runs, as well as the second inning. During this game we had two home runs... and one of them was by Cam!!! You should've seen the smile on his face!! It was a very proud moment for me to be able to see my husband nail on right over center field and out of the park!!! (for those who don't know, that is the longest distance to hit to be able to get it over the fence) Also during this game I had some really good hits. One of them went right over the pitcher and dropped down in one of the holes!! I made it home a couple of times as well. When we were in the field I was playing backcatcher. So this is the time that I must admit the reason why I play this position. There's actually a few reasons....#1 I have asthma and if I play rover in the outfield it means a lot of running, and I am scared of it acting up. #2 It helps with my throwing. I don't have a good "throwing arm" so for me to gun it in from the outfield is next to impossible for me. #3 I am afraid of the ball. I cannot play infield because I am too scared of how people throw it to me.....way too fast and sometimes not with very good aim. At home the pitcher will cover home for me when it's a major play. That's how scared I am of missing and being pegged in the head. But don't get me wrong. I do cover home when I need to, and tonight I had to do that a couple of times. But tonight when I had to cover home it was in a play that would help us win the game. Yeah thanks guys, no pressure. So here's the story. Two outs and a guy was just starting to round third for home. The ball had been thrown to third and the guy had a choice of going back and being called out or taking his chances on running home and me missing the ball so he would be safe. So there's me covering home, praying for him not to run so I wouldn't be put in that postition (did I mention that I had missed a couple of throws already that game???). But of course he makes a run for it, and the next thing I know the third basemen is throwing the ball to me!!! Crap, crap, crap is all that's going through my head! I still don't know how, but I managed to catch the ball!!! It was a perfect throw and I just happened to be on the plate. I swear I acted like a little school girl after he was called out!! Diva, you would've been laughing at me!! There I was jumping up and down and celebrating my catch that ended the game in the 5th inning. We ended up winning that game 18-3!! In our rules, you can't get more than seven runs in one inning, and since we were up by more than 14, we were given the game. It was nice having the team come up to me and pat me on the back for my play.

So that's my big story, and I hope that you enjoyed it. I'm still sitting here smiling remembering about the game. We play again on Tuesday and our team is going into it with a pride after two awesome wins!! We needed that boost of confidence. I am just really proud to be a part of such a wonderul team. And once again, I didn't need to use my inhaler!!!